A draft of how a loss of feelings of well being came about in the 1980's.

 

I FELT a loss of energy and enthusiasm and generally felt terrible and in fugue. 

WHEN

I experienced a plethora of work for no pay, no work or pay, or work situations combined with other unsettling occurences with housing rental unavailability or loss, then finishing my house and it turning out alright but external forces and occurrences turned it into a huge loss of 8 months of work, and all of my possessions and jewelry inventory and a hundred waxes and molds to make newly designed jewelry and the equipment to cast and finish them. I also lost all of the chattels owned and used by the Family. The new house was a nightmare of landscaping work and I had no possessions and no extra money when I worked at Mccallum Volvo driving to Victoria six days a week. 

Then I had to work on stopping the flooding directed into my new home by the terrible gang of neighbors from way up the road. There was also clay and mud everywhere, the ground cover plants (grasses and wildflowers and berries) were scooped up with the top soil when it was scraped up and trucked off. 

Next I had to work for nothing at my ex-wife's business or it would have failed right away instead of two years later. Then I was extorted by my wife while I paid her business financing debt and I had to support the family. I could not buy a newspaper. 

I think all that was a precursor to or enabler of the Fugue I was subjected to after my December 21 1986 motor vehicle crash and the denial of proper compensation which followed it as usual. The liable insurer said that I was "worthless". Thus there was no financial loss on my part for being injured. I felt severe anguish.