I EXPERIENCED A WHOLE
LOT OF HOGWASH, A
NAUSEATING SUBSTANCE,
DERIVED FROM PIG
URINE AND FECES.
Monday, May 5, 2025
HOGWASH AND BULLDUNG. THESE ARE SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE ALTERNATIVES TO THE COMMONLY USED BULL EXCREMENT EPITHET.
I EXPERIENCED A WHOLE
LOT OF HOGWASH, A
NAUSEATING SUBSTANCE,
DERIVED FROM PIG
URINE AND FECES.
IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTAIN,
HOGWASH FLOWS
EVERYWHERE ONTO
EVERYONE, JUST LIKE
FALSE AND DEFAMATORY
GOSSIP AND ACCUSATION.
I HAVE PLAYED
BULLDUNG FRISBEE,
FLINGING DRIED COWPIES.
THIS WAS IN 1981 AT THE
KAMLOOPS BC MODEL
AIRPLANE FLYING
COMPETITION.
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Thursday, May 1, 2025
THE PERMANENT NATURE OF INJURY, UNJUST TREATMENT AND THE LOSS OF WHAT I WAS WORKING AT.
I MIGHT HAVE A MORE FREQUENT RECALL THAN OTHER PEOPLE DO OF WHAT MADE ME LIMP OR OR CAUSED FUGUE, CONVULSION OR COLLAPSE BECAUSE IT COMES TO MIND DUE TO ASSOCIATION WITHIN MY TOTAL RECALL MEMORY.
EVEN THE NOT PHYSICAL LOSS OF MY PROSPECTS OR PROJECTS OR WHERE I HAD WORKED LINGERS, SURFACING IN MY THOUGHTS, BROUGHT BACK BY SIMILAR EVENTS OR ASSOCIATIVE FACTORS.
THE HYPER ALERTNESS I ADAPTED TO SO I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED BY POLICE ON MY PROPERTY OR TRYING TO BREAK INTO OR IN MY HOME ROUSTS ME EVERY TIME I HEAR A SUSPICIOUS NOISE WHICH SEEMS TO BE NEAR MY HOUSE OR IN THE DRIVEWAY. THE EFFECT OF THE FAKE 911 CALLS AND THE POLICE RAIDS NEVER GOES AWAY.
THE NEVER ENDING EFFECT OF SOME PHYSICAL INJURIES IS THE WORST ASPECT OF LINGERING INJURY WHICH COMES TO MIND WHEN I WAKE UP OR TRY TO ACCOMPLISH A TASK OR TO DO MY, NOW IN HIATUS, MUSIC PRACTICE.
CLICK ON THE ARROW TO VIEW AND HEAR "DARK IMAGININGS". THIS A LIVE UNCUT VIDEO OF A SONG DONE IN A MUSIC PRACTICE.
Saturday, February 22, 2025
I RECALL THE SOFT WARM SAFE TROPICAL PARADISE THAT I EXPERIENCED EVERYWHERE BEFORE I WAS DEFAMED TO THE POLICE. EVEN DURING WINTER THE WORLD WAS TRANQUIL.
I WAS NOT LIVING IN THE HARSH UNFORGIVING WORLD OF CONSTANT VIGILANCE AND CAPRICIOUS AND UNPREDICTABLE INTERVENTION.
ALWAYS THERE WAS A PENALTY TO BE PAID BY MYSELF EVEN THOUGH I CANNOT CONTROL ANYTHING BUT WHAT I DO HERE INSIDE MY HOME.
THE FAVORITE OUTCOME FOR THE POLICE WOULD BE MY LOSS OF THE HOUSE WHICH IS MY CRIPPLED SELF'S LAST REFUGE.
ALL OF THIS DESTRUCTION OF THE SAFE PLEASANT WORLD WAS BROUGHT TO A HEAD BY MY EX-WIFE TRIXIE DASHEVSKY AKA BETTY COLLARD'S ASSERTIONS THAT I HAD ABUSED HER AND THE CHILDREN.
DEFAMATORY FABRICATIONS ABOUT ME HAD BEEN USED AGAINST ME IN THE PAST SO PERPETRATORS OF DAMAGE TO MYSELF, MY PROJECTS OR PROSPECTS COULD ESCAPE RESPONSIBILITY.
MY EX-WIFE WAS AFFORDED A NEW CREDIBILITY AND PROTECTIONS AS SHE HAD DECLARED HERSELF TO BE MY VICTIM WHILE IN TRUTH I WAS HERS.
I AM NOT SURE EXACTLY WHEN THE WORLD OF TRANQUILITY, PERCEIVED SAFETY AND RELAXATION ENDED.
THE WORLD FEELS HARSH AND UNSAFE.
IT MAY HAVE BEEN THE GROWING WEIGHT OF OPPRESSION WHICH GOT WORSE AND WORSE AFTER EACH RAID.
IT WAS ADDED ONTO IMPOVERISHMENT I WAS SUBJECTED TO BY MY MOTHER AND MY WIFE OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
MY EX-WIFE AND HER LAWYER SUPPLIED THE MOTIVATION FOR POLICE TO TRY TO WIPE ME RIGHT OUT EVEN THOUGH I HAD NEVER HARMED ANYONE.
THE WORLD IS NOT SOFT AND SAFE, IT IS HARD, JAGGED AND DANGEROUS.
Monday, February 17, 2025
I JUST RECALLED "COLLAPSE". IT FEELS LIKE EXTREME SLIPPERINESS HAS BEEN ENCOUNTERED OR THE DIFFERENT FEELING, LIKE WATER IS SWEEPING ME AWAY OR A PUSHED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BACK FEELING.
I COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES WITHOUT REALIZING WHAT HAPPENED.
I ASSUMED THAT I HAD SLIPPED OR STUMBLED AND I REMEMBER THAT DECADES AGO I HAD FOUND MYSELF LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE ON THE LAWN AND I DID NOT RECOLLECT ANYTHING ABOUT HOW I GOT THERE.
IN 2001 I WAS FULLY AWARE OF COLLAPSING DOWN MY LEFT SIDE AND INJURING MY KNEE AND MY MID BACK.
IN THE LIGHT OF THIS EXPERIENCE I WAS ABLE TO RECALL PREVIOUS FALL SITUATIONS OR WHEN I COLLAPSED BUT I REMAINED SQUATTED DOWN BUT I WAS STILL ON ONE OR BOTH FEET.
1
: to fall or shrink together abruptly and completely : fall into a jumbled or flattened mass through the force of external pressure
2
: to break down completely : DISINTEGRATE
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3
: to cave or fall in or give way
.
4
: to suddenly lose force, significance, effectiveness.
5
: to break down in vital energy, stamina, or self-control.
especially : to fall helpless.
6
: to fold down into a more compact shape
Signs that it’s a seizure
The doctor will suspect seizure if you have:
- a sense déjà vu before collapsing
- major shaking as soon as you collapse
- blood in your mouth or confusion after collapsing.
THE SENSE OF DEJA VU IS SOMETHING I HAVE EXPERIENCED.
I HAVE ALSO TASTED THE "METALLIC" TASTE IN MY MOUTH.
I HAVE BEEN PSYCHOLOGICALLY AND PERCEPTUALLY IMPACTED.
I HAVE ALSO BEEN PHYSICALLY IMPACTED, PARALYZED.
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