I BECAME DISABLED AGAIN IN NINETEEN EIGHTY SIX WHILE I WAS MARRIED AND JUST AFTER I HAD WORKED AT MY EX-WIFE'S "MAJOR BUSINESS THAT (SHE USED "I") WAS THE OPERATOR OF" SIX DAYS A WEEK FOR NO PAY.

A CAR TURNING LEFT STRUCK MY CAR GOING STRAIGHT THROUGH AN INTER-SECTION AND PROPELLED MY CAR INTO A STEEL TELEPHONE POLE LIKE THIS.

This is a car similar to my restored 1970 Oldsmobile F85 that hit a wooden pole.

I HAVE RESEARCHED THE SYMPTOMS I EXPERIENCED AFTER MY NINETEEN EIGHTY SIX CAR CRASH AND I HAVE NOT FOUND A COMPREHENSIVE DIAGNOSIS. 

I HAD TO SLEEP EVERY FOUR HOURS FOR ABOUT FORTY MINUTES TO REMAIN ACTIVE. I COULD STAY UP LONGER IF I WAS JUST SITTING THERE NOT MOVING.

IN ADDITION I HAD DIFFICULTY WALKING OR STANDING UNSUPPORTED WITHOUT LEANING ON FURNITURE OR A FENCE OR HOLDING ON TO A RAILING.

I HAD ANOTHER PROBLEM I WAS NOT AWARE OF AS LOSS OF IDENTITY AND A LOSS OF ABILITY TO KNOW WHO WAS WHOM IN MY ANECDOTAL MEMORY PREVENTED ME FROM DISCERNING MY LOSS OF MEMORY. I REMEMBER THE DARK WET STREET IN VANCOUVER WHERE MY CAR WAS PROPELLED INTO A STEEL TELEPHONE POLE IN 1986, AND THEN REALLY NOT MUCH ELSE UNTIL THE 3RD  OF JANUARY 1990. AMNESIA CAUSED BY HEAD INJURY AND ALSO  MY EXHAUSTED AND HUMILIATED STATE THAT WAS CAUSED BY BEING UNPAID FOR OVER THREE YEARS WORK AND THEN FORCED TO PAY BACK MONEY MY MOTHER SUPPLIED TO MY WIFE TO START HER BUSINESS WHICH WAS STOLEN FROM MY TRUST FUND FROM MY PATERNAL GRANDFATHER IN 1964 TO START WITH. 

THEN IT WAS DECLARED THAT THE PAYBACK WOULD BE DIS-ACKNOWLEDGED AND IT WOULD BE KEPT AS INTEREST PAYMENTS AND I WOULD HAVE MONEY I INHERITED FROM MY UNCLE KEPT TO PAY NON-EXISTENT DEBT AND EXTREMELY HIGH INTEREST. 

IT JUST OCCURRED TO ME WOULD IT NOT BE MY WIFE'S RESPONSIBILITY TO TRY TO HELP ME RATHER THAN IMPLEMENT THE EXTORTION AND EXPLOITATION TO WHICH I WAS SUBJECTED.

MY WIFE WAS MENTALLY ILL. I DID NOT TRY TO GET RID OF HER OR SEND HER TO AN INSTITUTION. I PUT UP WITH IT AND I ALSO RESCUED PROPERTY AND FINANCES WHICH SHE HAD DAMAGED WITH HER EXCESS AND HER OBSESSIVE CONTROLLING COUNTERFACTUALISM.

THE RESENTFUL REDNECKS AT OTTER POINT STOLE AND DESTROYED EVERYTHING I WAS AND HAD. THEN WOMEN IN MY FAMILY AND WOMEN IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD NEAR MY ROCKCLIFFE APARTMENTS IN VICTORIA WAGED AN ECONOMIC WAR AND A WAR OF DEFAMATION AND FAKE 911 CALLS AGAINST ME. I LOST THE WAR BADLY.

 May 27, 2024

NOW THAT YOU WHO ATTACKED ME HAVE WON AND I HAVE BEEN FINANCIALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY CRUSHED: WHAT'S UP?

THE FACT THAT I OWNED MY OWN HOME, WHICH I PURCHASED ON MY OWN, MADE MY OBJECTIONS TO LOSSES I HAD BEEN FORCED TO ENDURE WITHOUT A PROPER REMEDY SEEM TO BE NEUROTIC AND GREEDY WHEN I HAD SO MUCH, I STILL HAD MY HOUSE. EXCEPT THAT BY 2000, MY EX-WIFE AND MY MOTHER'S EXPLOITATION OF ME AND THEFT FROM ME LEFT ME WITH NO CASH AND MORE THAN $230,000 TAKEN FROM MY INHERITED MONEY.

WHEN I PURCHASED THE FIRST HOUSE ON THIS PROPERTY, BY SELLING MY JEWELRY MANUFACTURING BUSINESS, TO PAY HALF DOWN FOR THE UNFINISHED HOUSE AND THE LAND, I HAD FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT MOSTLY USING MYSELF AS LABOR AND SOME FAMILY DERIVED MONEY TO FINISH IT. THEN I WAS GOING TO SELL MY INVENTORY OF FINISHED JEWELRY TO PAY OFF THE THIRTY THOUSAND DOLLAR  MORTGAGE IN THE TAXATION YEAR AFTER THE ONE WHERE I SOLD MY BUSINESS. I ALSO HAD MY TERRIBLE CAR SALESMAN'S JOB SO I THOUGHT I COULD RENEW MY MORTGAGE.

WHAT I DID NOT REALIZE WAS THAT INTEREST RATES HAD GONE WAY UP. I DID NOT KNOW IT THEN, BUT IT WAS IMPERATIVE THAT I PAY OFF THE MORTGAGE AND THEN GET A BETTER JOB.

WHEN THE REDNECKS PILLAGED AND BURNT MY GOODS AND MY HOME I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND EVERYTHING I GOT FROM THE INSURANCE PLUS QUITE A LOT OF ADDITIONAL MONEY  TO BUILD ANOTHER HOUSE. I LOST ALL OF MY POSSESSIONS AND THERE WAS NO MONEY TO BUY MORE.

I HAD SUCCEEDED IN PRODUCING A NO MORTGAGE HOME BUT I HAD NO POSSESSIONS AND I HAD USED UP ANY POSSIBLE STARTING A BUSINESS MONEY MY AUNT OR MY UNCLE WOULD HAVE PROVIDED. THERE WAS A LOT OF WORK TO DO AT THE NEW HOUSE AND ON THE GROUNDS  AROUND IT. I WOULD HAVE TO QUIT DRIVING SIX DAYS A WEEK TO VICTORIA. I HAD NO IDEA WHEN I TOOK THE CAR SALES JOB THAT I WOULD WORK TIL 9:30 PM UP TO THREE NIGHTS PER WEEK AND WITH ONE SATURDAY PER MONTH OFF. I HAD TO QUIT.

AS I WORKED AWAY, WITHOUT PAY, HERE AT OTTER POINT I BEGAN TO HAVE THE RUNS AND EVEN TO VOMIT.

THEN MY EX-WIFE DEMANDED HER "MAJOR BUSINESS SHE OPERATED" AND I ENDED UP IN DEBT AND BACK TO SIX LONG DAYS AND DRIVING TO VICTORIA.

I BECAME TOTALLY FATIGUED AND I WORKED LIKE AN AUTOMATON. I WAS THE DEBTOR TO MY FAMILY AND THE UNPAID SLAVE OF MY WIFE AMD WITHOUT REALIZING IT HAPPENED I BECAME FINANCIALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY CRUSHED.

THEN THERE WAS THE DECEMBER 21  1986 CAR CRASH AND I WAS EVEN MORE CRUSHED, INTO A STATE OF FUGUE. 

IN RETROSPECT, RETROSPECTING, I FEEL DEFEATED IN THE PURSUIT OF MY PROJECTS AND AIMS. I FEEL MORE CRUSHED THAN I EVER FELT. I HAVE PROPERTY: MY HOME WAS CONSTANTLY RAIDED, I FEEL CRUSHED, I DO NOT FEEL RELAXED. I INHERITED ENOUGH MONEY AT AGE 55, IN 2001 TO BUY THE ROCKCLIFFE APARTMENTS IN VICTORIA BUT THAT WAS MADE TO BE NO MORE THAN AN INVESTMENT. MY APARTMENT BUILDING WAS A SCENE WHERE THE ALF TOONE COOP WON IN 2001 FAKE 911, AND POLICE AND BY-LAW COOPERATING WITH THEM AND I HAVE BEEN DEFEATED AND CRUSHED EVER SINCE.

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THREE GIGANTIC LOSSES: I WAS A PASSIVE AND ENFEEBLED VICTIM AND I COULD NOT OBTAIN ANY REMEDY

MY HOUSE AND ALL MY GOODS IN 1980.

MY PERMANENT RENTAL: I WAS REPLACED BY A FRIEND OF SOMEONE AT THE BCDC AT THE BURR HOUSE IN 1979.

I LOST MY JOB AT THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD AND I WAS DENIED MY DISABILITY PENSION. I WAS DEFRAUDED IN 1970.

Postscript: THE LOSSES ARE CUMULATIVE AND PERMANENT. WHATEVER ONE LOST OR DID NOT RECEIVE REMAINS FOREVER MISSING FROM ONE'S TOTAL WEALTH.

THERE IS A LACK OF ABILITY TO INVEST MONEY IN A COMMERCIAL ENTERPRISE OR TO CONTINUE TO PURSUE LONG TERM GOALS, CAUSED BY THE LOSSES.

Wood Furnace

 

Virtually paralyzed and ignored.

After a month of really bad paralysis I made it in to Sooke. I think December 14 2023 was the last day before this latest until today, bout of paralysis that I could do anything. 

I HAVE REPEATEDLY TOLD MY MEDICAL PRACTICIONERS AND MANY OTHER PERSONS THAT IF I UNDERTAKE AN ACTIVITY ON DAY ONE, I AM NOT FIT TO ACCOMPLISH ANOTHER ACTIVITY UNTIL DAY FOUR.

 A page on how I feel December 15 2023:  This is today's entry among the 100 or "Apage on how I feel" so titled and dated in my 'Document files'. 

After many days of Virtual Paralysis I was active yesterday for an hour or so. I attached a string of lights to the C-can. I had to stand on the ladder, place and secure the light string and affix  3 ties.

Today I at first could not straighten my back from "reverse arch spasm" sufficiently to be able to get out of bed, I had to lay there not moving. Now when I do stand to do bathroom or kitchen activity I have to lean on something or if  I close my eyes I have more standing up strength. Sitting held in place by wedging legs and arms allows more and longer useful time , to write or eat or drink. I usually last only two minutes up on my feet and not just today, This happens a lot during a period of post collapse recovery. 

 I googled "paralysis, and I was offered among other things:

Why do I feel paralyzed?

Paralysis is one of the ways our body responds to stress, and there's ways to manage it. Living with anxiety engages your autonomic nervous system (ANS), also known as the fight, flight, or freeze response. The “freeze” response can feel like paralysis — physical, emotional, or cognitive.Apr 25, 2022.      

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THE POLICE COULD BE HERE.

THEY MADE A POINT OF TELLING ME THAT THEY COULD COME HERE ANYTIME, 24/7.

My energy is sapped by stress and anxiety according to the Googled quote.  I feel I have to be alert for an imminent raid at any time. There is also a debilitating factor caused by the anguish I feel at having my homestead despoiled physically and at the loss of the quiet enjoyment of my property.

POSTSCRIPT:

PERHAPS WHAT I CALL "VIRTUAL PARALYSIS IS PARESIS? THIS CAME UP ON A GOOGLE PAGE.

Paralysis vs Paresis: Key Differences

Paralysis and paresis have distinct characteristics that help differentiate between the two. The main difference between paralysis and paresis are as follows:

• Degree of Loss: The main difference between paresis and paralysis is the degree of muscle function loss. Paralysis is characterized by complete or severe muscle weakness in the affected area. In contrast, paresis is characterized by partial weakness or reduced muscle strength in the affected body areas.
  Another key difference between paralysis and paresis is that paralysis can cause loss of sensation and reflexes in the affected area, while paresis only affects muscle strength and control. Paresis may also cause muscle twitching or cramping, whereas paralysis does not.
• Symptom Severity: The symptoms of paresis are typically less severe than those of paralysis. Individuals with paresis may experience weakness or difficulty moving a particular muscle or muscle group, while individuals with paralysis may not be able to move the affected muscle at all.
• Potential for Recovery: While paralysis may be permanent, paresis is often reversible with proper treatment. In paralysis, the damage to the muscle or nerves controlling the muscle may be too severe for recovery. However, in the case of paresis, with physical therapy or other interventions, individuals with paresis may be able to regain full muscle function.  

AFTER MY TRIP TO SOOKE TODAY JANUARY 29 2024THIS IS HOW I WAS AFFLICTED BY PARALYSIS, UNABLE TO MOVE AND I WILL HAVE TO LAY DOWN  AGAIN NOW.

I HAVE REPEATEDLY TOLD MY MEDICAL PRACTICIONERS AND MANY OTHER PERSONS THAT IF I UNDERTAKE AN ACTIVITY ON DAY ONE, I AM NOT FIT TO ACCOMPLISH ANOTHER ACTIVITY UNTIL DAY FOUR.

 A page on how I feel December 15 2023:  This is today's entry among the 100 or "Apage on how I feel" so titled and dated in my 'Document files'. 

After many days of Virtual Paralysis I was active yesterday for an hour or so. I attached a string of lights to the C-can. I had to stand on the ladder, place and secure the light string and affix  3 ties.

Today I at first could not straighten my back from "reverse arch spasm" sufficiently to be able to get out of bed, I had to lay there not moving. Now when I do stand to do bathroom or kitchen activity I have to lean on something or if  I close my eyes I have more standing up strength. Sitting held in place by wedging legs and arms allows more and longer useful time , to write or eat or drink. I usually last only two minutes up on my feet and not just today, This happens a lot during a period of post collapse recovery. 

 I googled "paralysis, and I was offered among other things:

Why do I feel paralyzed?

Paralysis is one of the ways our body responds to stress, and there's ways to manage it. Living with anxiety engages your autonomic nervous system (ANS), also known as the fight, flight, or freeze response. The “freeze” response can feel like paralysis — physical, emotional, or cognitive.Apr 25, 2022.      

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THE POLICE COULD BE HERE.

THEY MADE A POINT OF TELLING ME THAT THEY COULD COME HERE ANYTIME, 24/7.

My energy is sapped by stress and anxiety according to the Googled quote.  I feel I have to be alert for an imminent raid at any time. There is also a debilitating factor caused by the anguish I feel at having my homestead despoiled physically and at the loss of the quiet enjoyment of my property.

POSTSCRIPT:

PERHAPS WHAT I CALL "VIRTUAL PARALYSIS IS PARESIS? THIS CAME UP ON A GOOGLE PAGE.

Paralysis vs Paresis: Key Differences

Paralysis and paresis have distinct characteristics that help differentiate between the two. The main difference between paralysis and paresis are as follows:

• Degree of Loss: The main difference between paresis and paralysis is the degree of muscle function loss. Paralysis is characterized by complete or severe muscle weakness in the affected area. In contrast, paresis is characterized by partial weakness or reduced muscle strength in the affected body areas.
  Another key difference between paralysis and paresis is that paralysis can cause loss of sensation and reflexes in the affected area, while paresis only affects muscle strength and control. Paresis may also cause muscle twitching or cramping, whereas paralysis does not.
• Symptom Severity: The symptoms of paresis are typically less severe than those of paralysis. Individuals with paresis may experience weakness or difficulty moving a particular muscle or muscle group, while individuals with paralysis may not be able to move the affected muscle at all.
• Potential for Recovery: While paralysis may be permanent, paresis is often reversible with proper treatment. In paralysis, the damage to the muscle or nerves controlling the muscle may be too severe for recovery. However, in the case of paresis, with physical therapy or other interventions, individuals with paresis may be able to regain full muscle function.